It puts you in SUCH an amazing mood for the day when you wake up at 7:15 in the morning listening to the birds outside after an amazing weekend with your gorgeous boyfriend and you're in a panic because you're late to get up and shower and make it to work... Until you realize that you have the day off of work and curl back into your duvet and pass out again.

Life is good right now. Rarely can I honestly say that, so when I have the opportunity, I like to express it. As you may be able to guess, things with John are great. Spent the entire weekend with him and we got some things out in the air. He's leaving for Europe for almost two months at the end of August. If we make it to the end of August, we're going to give it a fair shot. Sucks testicles, yes. Friday night John came to my place for the first time. We went out for Thai food and for drinks with Kelly and came back here for a while. We went for a walk at about midnight and played around at the playground. Saturday he met my parents and we went over to his place where he cooked me another amazing dinner. Kelly came up in the evening to go to a kegger with us. Lame-ass kegger! I think I am to blame for Kelly's adventures that night. I spotted this really cute guy so I sent her over to hit on him so that I wouldn't. Turns out he's in a fancy chef's school in Ottawa and that's where it all went to hell! Haha! Times weren't too bad, I got to meet a lot of his friends, a few of them were really nice guys. After I retrieved Kelly from the alley we made it home. Poor, poor Kelly. Haha! John had a golf tournament in the morning so Kelly and I hung out in his bed for a few hours before she left. I think his brother thinks we're insane. Unfortunately, John's grandfather passed away yesterday and Adam broke this news to him when he got home. He went out in the afternoon with two of his friends, Caroline and Tera, because he wanted to get his mind off of it. We missed the Pride Parade and went shopping, I finally have a guy who shops more than me and doesn't mind to splurge! He took me to this great Italian restaurant for gourmet thin-crust pizza and we went back to his place for a while until Kelly picked me up. Interesting to see how he's going to handle the situation with his grandfather. Well, I'm going to go get dressed, I'm going for dessert over at Kelly's!

Just the smell of the summer can make me fall in love.

I want you to talk to me about the most mundane details of your life. I'm sick of hearing all the big stuff. So what that you got a new job... I want to hear that you found yourself laughing for no reason when you brushed your teeth today... Now, that's a story.

Good lord, I was having a discussion with my parents about John and they actually used the term "hanky-panky". Good grief.

Thanks to those of you that sent me birthday cards, birthday wishes, and who came out on Saturday! Carol, Steph and I went to John's for a while and got stuck in traffic on the way to Joe's for almost two hours. We didn't get to the bar until 1am, which was bad considering I'd told everyone that I'd be there by 11pm. I think John enjoyed us checking out every single guy on the road. Had fun, drank way too much in the short time that the bar was open. Carol and I stayed at John's place for the night and we didn't end up leaving there until late afternoon on Sunday. We went out for lunch and I headed home. My head had barely touched the pillow (a mere three hours of sleep the night before, John and I had better things to do than sleep) when Chris called from my driveway. He'd come from rustic Font Hill to surprise me :) Did I mention that he's awesome? So we played around for the afternoon and went to Barrie with Kelly in the evening. Thank you, Chris! I love my Goober!

In other news, I am now in a commited relationship. Can you believe it?! I can't, haha! No, I'm just crazy about John and vice-versa. He's exactly what I need right now plus as a bonus, he cooks! I can be myself around him and enjoy his intelligence, sense of humour, and ambition. Things are really great with him, and a great birthday present! I'm all smiley over him, it's adorable. He's so great... Yes, you're going to get sick of me drooling about him.

So, I've been 20 for two days now and as a sure sign of my newfound wisdom and maturity, I got my hand stuck in the photocopier this morning.

The new plans for those of you that I couldn't get a hold of... I'm going to Toronto to Carol's place and we're going out for dinner. After that, I'm driving us over to John's and we're probably picking up Steph there as well. We're going to Budo for a very short time (on Peter Street) and then to Joe (on Richmond Street). I might spend the night at Carol's place, but let's be honest here, I'll probably spend the night at John's place. Cool? Call my cell if you need to get a hold of me.

Sexy ladies want war wit us?

The West Nile is the best Nile!

i have a bad case of spring fever. help.

xkerchx: im gonna go now
xkerchx: youre not answering and i feel like a mormon
xkerchx: moron*

Jesus is my homeboy.

So so so happy. Went to John's last night and it was amazing. I'm beyond crazy about him, and to give him a fair chance I'm going to stop seeing other people. Not that he's asked me to, it's a personal choice. Pick your jaws up off the floor. Little Miss Fear-of-Commitment (didn't she have a book?) has found someone that she can actually see herself with. Scary. Seriously, that's downright frightening. The biggest flaw I see with him right now is only that he lives over half an hour away. He cooked me an amazing dinner last night and was just so sweet and incredible. Wow. In one word, wow. For anyone that's been keeping track, the last time that I've even semi-devoted myself to a guy was back in October with Trevor. Even then though, I was still with Rob on weekends. I picked up something more than half-decent at the bar, imagine that! I'm smitten. He's coming out with me tonight, seeing as how it's MY BIRTHDAY. Hehe! I'm TWENTY! At least I rung it in in style this year...

...Therefore I found myself unable to respond at all, unable to act. I told myself that I had been foolish to dream of heating the coolness between us, that I had been an idiot for imagining that a close relationship with her was possible, that I had gotten in over my head with this one, that these waters were too dark and strange, that I would never understand her and-
-and then she kissed me.
-Twilight Eyes, Dean Koontz

I Hate...
Spam. I get about 100 spam emails to my hotmail account each day, not including my practically useless "junk mail" box. And if I don't check that account at least twice a day and clear out the spam, my account gets too full to accept any more email. I can usually tell which ones are junk... like the ones with all the random letters in the subject like "Hi, Bobbie!xywoiwhgaoiaweth". Or the ones that say "Re: Low Mortgage Rates" (Wait a minute. I emailed you about low mortgage rates?!). Not to mention the Spanish porn that I now receive daily with each e-mail being over the size of 900kb, that comes in under a different address each day.

But there are certain emails, all from the same company, that get me every time. They say ambiguous things like "Did you see this?" in the subject line and seem to be from names that sound a bit familiar like "Sara Campbell". Sara Campbell... hmmm... did I go to school with her? Does she have a blog? Maybe.

So I click, only to find an ad for Gainpro or some other penile enhancement product. Foiled again! Oddly enough, I've gotten so many emails from Sara Campbell, that now each time I get one, I'm absolutely sure I know the name. Sara Campbell... oh, yeah, I know her! Click. Dammit!

Today's spam dupe was an email from "Eric Simmons" with the subject line "Where did you go?" And I am certain that the next time I get one from "Eric" the name will sound even more familiar than it did today. It especially irks me that these spam companies know when you open a message. I imagine the spammers hanging out in Guam, staring at their computers and laughing at me. "I can't believe she clicked on that!" they giggle as they exchange a hearty high-five. May they all die. Amen.

Blogging from work, that's how dead it's in here today! Getting kinda excited about my birthday this weekend! :) Friday night I'm going to John's place and he's cooking me dinner and then we might head out to the Brunney with Carol. Doubt we'll make it out of the house though... Saturday, I'm heading to Toronto to do some Ikea and clothes shopping with Carol and then we're heading to Alto Basso, a martini lounge in the heart of Little Italy (that's just for you, Chris!) and then off to Red Square, a vodka bar downtown. John's coming with... Feel bad for the mofo, to start dating me so soon to my birthday! I'm really starting to fall for him though... It's strange, I can just see myself with him. Wish he lived in town. Humph. He's going to teach me how to golf, can you imagine?! Yikes! FORE! That's like the only golfing skill I possess, the talent to yell "fore" at the top of my lungs. I think I would also excel in the areas of beer cart and stunt golf cart driving. Haha, I should get a video camera so you guys can see this!

I was watching For Love or Money last night, that new reality show where the girls know that they get a million dollars if he chooses them, but he doesn't know it. There's this one girl on it (they're down to four girls now), named Paige who's only 21 years old, making her 13 years younger than the guy. Definately a disadvantage for her. You can see her immaturity with the way she just gushes over the guy and is totally up on her own little cloud. She said that her date with her was absolutely perfect, and the best one she'd ever been on, neglected the fact that there was another girl on her dream date with her. Needless to say, her sickly sweetness is horrendeouslly annoying. But that's me. I am Paige. As much as I'd love to see her kicked off, I can relate. I meet a guy and just fall head first and think about it later. She was the first one to actually like him, instead of just going for it for the money like the other girls. Is that so wrong? It won't win her the game, that's for sure and it probably won't win her the guy. I think that says something about me. But then again, I think it says something about me that I can relate to people on reality shows.

So, have I mentioned lately that I like John?

Alright, I got sidetracked from narrating the weekend. Dwayne is giving me and my friends free tickets to the 50 Cent and Jay-Z concert, which is cool. We ran into Kelly's boss at the bar, his name is Troy and he is quite possibly one the best looking guys I've ever met. He's dating one of the girls I went to high school with, a legend in her own right. Beautiful people. Kelly and I went over to his place with a few of his friends. Nice. There was the topless drunken model with the amazing body, the firefighter massaging me, the surfer with the amazing smile... Nice. Can I mention how I've never had a hot boss? Anyways, I'm not going into that night, cuz it's Kelly's story to tell, not mine. I don't want people reading other peoples business. Tried strip pool, never again! Strip poker yes, strip pool no. Ended up with the surfer for a while, good fun and gave my number to the firefighter. Who knows. And then there was Saturday... Went to a BBQ in Richmond Hill with John's friends. The guy who owned the house turned out to be a guy that Carol had made out with up in Ottawa and the look on her face was priceless. Or the silence after I said really loud "OH MY GOD". Especially since his girlfriend of four years was there. Hehe! I'm glad someone else is having my kind of luck. Went to The Guvernment at night with Kelly, Carol, John, and his hot brother Adam. It was pretty good, I don't think the other girls enjoyed themselves as much as I did, but that's because I was hanging off of John's lips all night. Good fun. Adam was absolutely awesome too. Gorgeous, well-dressed, well-spoken, highly intelligent, sense of humour and he dances. Carol and Kelly couldn't decide which one would get him so they called a truce and neither did. We had hilarities throughout the night and a guy wearing an open kimono with bushy chest hair hit on Adam. Hysterical. Kelly whispered to him "He's hitting on you." and he goes "No, I'm just being friendly!" Kelly had an itchy leg today and asked me what I thought it was, I told her it was gonorrhea. She said that wasn't possible as she's not getting any, but I told her that anything was possible after the guy in the kimono "He had an aura of STD's". And McDonald's drive-thru, I was crying I was laughing so hard. Great guys, both of them. I'm crazy about John though. I could really see myself with him. Just adorable and so sweet. He actually offered to go shoe shopping with Kelly and I today. Guys like this are one in a million!

I really really like John. Really. *Smile* Weekend summary, a lot of drinking. Friday night, Kelly somehow convinced me to go to Charlie's, the local bar. Saw a bunch of people we knew, but overall lameness. Like Esposito noticed, way too many fake people. Productive though, I got Olivier's number, a guy from Paris who is in Ontario for a year. Lovely French accent and designer clothes. Probably give him a call tomorrow. Also ran into all of the guys that Linz and I used to obsess about, including Dwayne whom I haven't seen in four years. It was such a weird feeling. These guys used to be the hottest guys in town, everyone knew who they were. Popular and good looking, every girl drooled over them and every guy idolized them. But they stayed there, that was the highpoint of their lives. A lifetime peak at the tender age of nineteen. I feel so superior when I see them now, they're trying to pick me up and I know that I've had better than them and I will continue to have better than them.

John called, John called, John called! *Toothy grin!* And, amazingly enough, he seems like a sane guy who is well educated with a good job and a sense of humour and who also has dimples! Am I in a parallel universe? He's coming out with us this weekend, so we'll see how it goes! Might be sucky though, I'm bringing him and Carol's bringing the guy that she was with (Dan) and then Kelly will be guy-less. Ah well, I'm sure she can pick one up. I had a great conversation with my mother today, she was complaining about the amount of time that I spend in bars and I was arguing that the reason that I go to bars is not to drink. She said "I agree you're not there to drink, it's worse than that! You're there to pick up guys!" Ah, zing from the mother. Went to JJ's last night, he killed one of my fish! Poor Raggedy Ann. Work was so incredibly boring tonight, so I just played around. Hi, Liran! :) Yah, the veggie sticks, that was me! Haha!

"Many a false step is made by standing still."
-Fortune Cookie

Someone once said we begin to die from the day were born, and eventually we all die. But can you actually become deceased before physical death? When your body can't feel anymore... When your heart grows cold and hardens... When your soul dies... Death is beautiful, and we all die a little everyday. Sitting here, I feel myself begin to fade, and I don't think anyone can save me...

We never know exactly why she ate daisies. She said it made her feel more alive inside; almost like riding a tricycle home during the spring. Daisies, she smiles, are the key to my innocence. We know her innocence is gone, but we don't tell her. We let her go licking the petals and chewing the stem as she considers the new rhubarb for brunch. And in the afternoon as she sat in her room, she ate daisies from her pillows; she smiled and then she danced. She was quite the little prancer in her pink jumpsuit. And the words echo in her head of love, lust and innocence lost. He loves me, he loves me not... It's all the same and she swallowed it whole and entire, feeding her inner fire. Pretty little flowers blooming in her psychedelic dreams remind her that life isn't always what it seems. She's just a good little girl who's found her peace, tripping through the daisies...
-She Ate Daisies

I must absolve my sins in Mecca or something. I went to the sorority retreat up North with Steph on Friday. There were about fifteen girls up there, who were all drunk by the time we got up there; so of course we had to catch up. Great time considering I only knew half of them, nice to meet the new ones and the see the ones that I haven't seen since the end of school. Good times, good times. I don't THINK I did anything stupid... So Saturday night, when I'm already exhausted from Friday night and have a raging fever and have lost my voice, I head to Toronto with Carol and Kelly. We went to a house party at Dave's, ran into some guys I knew from Aurora which was cool. The drinking commenced with Kelly taking a shot of Bacardi 151. Yep, that's 70% folks! Some Middle Eastern guy asked for and got my number, he was wearing a mesh shirt. Way to go, Jenna! I think his name was like Assmad or Awesome or something along those lines. Carol and Kelly stole beer from the bathtub upstairs ("That's expensive beer! Steal it!") and we went on our way to the Devil's Martini. Some guy was following us, that was pretty strange. We hooched it up on the dancefloor for a while until Kelly's stilettos started to kill her and so we crashed on the couches. Met Ted (Carol- "He looks like JonJon!" Jenna- "Yah! But hot!") and chatted with him for a while, he was adorable and went and chilled with his friends. Then in comes Dave, who has left his own house party to see us, and brought a bunch of guys with him. So we spent some time avoiding him, he got pissed at Carol as a result. Bah well. I met this guy... Wow. His name is John, he's a stock trader, which means he wears suits or at least business professional. I spent the whole night with him, he's awesome. Not Awesome, but awesome. Haha! He better call me... Totally great guy, so sweet and cute. Kelly hooked up with a guy named Dan and so did Carol (but another Dan), so all of us had a good time. We headed out after they teared me away from John and Kelly went to squat in the alley. Classy. Who should be the alley but her Dan. She was like "Alright, nice meeting you, see you later!", haha! Good times. Went to McDonald's, ran into Dan again and got some food. Carol gave her number to everyone in a 5 mile radius of McDonald's. Took a cab home and crashed at Carol's, the three of us in one bed. I feel sooo asstastic today, pounding headache and exhausted. But it was worth it!!!

Just like to comment on my hair. All day I look like a cross between Tina Turner and Weird Al Yankovic. Now that I'm doped up and going to bed, it's PERFECT!

Is it possible to die from a cold? Yesterday morning I was fine, now I'm on my deathbed. What have I done to deserve this?! Not to mention I'm going up North with the sorority retreat on Friday night and then to Toronto on Saturday night; I must be healthy! Help!

Grgrgr... Chris knows the feeling. I took a break from guys and I don't think it suits me. I'm bored. Alright my cell was just ringing and when I answer it, it's Carol chanting, "Pick up your phone...", over and over again. I like how everyone knows everything about my life. I'm talking to Mike Fry, who I haven't talked to in weeks, and he knows everything that's happening with me. Um? So Nick's not coming until like friggin' Tuesday according to Carol. Who comes to town on a Tuesday?! Blargh. And I'm sick. Make me better. *Wink wink!* Omg, related topic, soooo so good! A few of you know what I mean...

So I've worked two days at my new full-time job and they're leaving me alone in the office tomorrow until noon to handle everything by my lonesome. Uh...? I start modeling kilts for the uniform store next week, woo!

Thank you for my power cord Chris! I'll cherish it forever!

Sometimes I am such a TOOL! So I'm going to be out of town this weekend, going for a retreat up North with the sorority. At the same time that Nick is coming to Toronto. *Jenna bangs her head repeatedly on the desk*.

So tired... Wow, what a weekend. Carol and I headed up to Ottawa on Friday, and got in pretty late. Highlight of the drive from Carol "One horsie, two horsie, three horsie... No wait, those are cows." City girl! Bad Nick, a guy she'd met close to the beginning of the year, picked us up with a few of his friends Waseem and something I couldn't understand. He's Bad Nick to differentiate him from Good Nick, her former boyfriend. Don't ask. The girl that was with them wanted to go to Gatineau, so we ended up at Le Fou Du Roi in the middle of nowhere. It was beyond incredibly packed, and way too many old men staring at my chest. Nick and everyone else was buying us drinks though so we were fine until someone taps me on the shoulder. Who should it be but my dear friend Yusuf. I kid you not. That's the one that was stalking me and proposed to me, and he is now in this tiny bar somewhere in Quebec. What are the odds? Things like this only happen to me. So he starts rambling off and I keep trying to get away but he won't leave me only. I seek shelter in the arms of Nick and Yusuf just glares and me all night long and tries to talk to me. We finally leave and head Le Bop for a while (sorry for calling you drunk, Linz!) and to Nick's place for a game of strip poker. I won! And most importantly, Nick lost. Haha! We headed home at about six, exhausted, and got up a few hours later to apartment hunt. We found one that we think we're going to take, it's a great location and really nice place. At night, we went to 311, the unofficial TKE house, to drink with the boys. Sully was in town and rejoicing to see me. We stayed for a while and convinced Derek and Jordan to come to OnTap with us. Had some fun there, Nick and Waseem came later, Carol picked up a local, and Sal came with Mike to see us. So Carol and I were juggling all night, and with the eight shots that I had in a row with Sal, plus all of the beers and coolers, we got wasted. Nick ushered us out at closing and the four of us headed back to our place. (Otherwise known as Kelly's place). Nick and I hooked up and if things go well, this could turn out great. He's like the French Vin Diesel with dimples. Yummy. He's supposed to come to Toronto next weekend, so we'll see. We all woke up really late in the afternoon and headed home, got in around seven. Good, good times. I think Carol and I living together next year is going to be a blast, and I'm so glad that we found someplace nice because I was starting to get worried. Oh, I'm employed now, so I have to work Monday-Friday. Ugh! Well, I'm going to pass out. I really cannot type for another second!