Single again... Well sort of. The most single I've been for two months. No boyfriend on the continent and none lined up. Hmm. Went to surprise Jon at the airport yesterday, poor doll. The surprise worked, he didn't clue in with all of the questions I was asking him. Saw me and started to cry. Poor doll. Had some drinks with his family and then when he went to leave he said goodbye to his family and then me, crying. Poor doll.

I was actually better than I thought I would be. I couldn't do that again. After Josh... The goodbye from Josh was honestly the worst I have ever felt at any given point in my life. I couldn't do another tearful gut-wrenching goodbye. I'll miss him... I really will. You just get so used to having someone around. The goodbye was touching, I didn't think he cared that much. I hope everything works out.