Had bad bad day yesterday. Horrid. The pits, if you will. I tried to register for my courses online and had five scheduling errors. Basically, all of my courses were superimposed on each other at the crack of dawn on Monday morning. Thankfully, Carol sorted a bit of it out and I've talked to every single human working at Carleton, and I'm down to one problem. Working on it.
Warned Jon that would be v. grouchy, so we met at Ikea with Carol to finish up some shopping. Nothing cheers me up like Ikea, and nothing seems to annoy me like Jon. I was mega-bitch to him and friendly to Carol, so he knew something was up. He tried to butter me up by taking me to McD's and we ended up talking for a long time about everything. To make a long story short, even though he wants to stay together, we're going to take a break when he's in Europe and then reconvene upon his return. Makes sense, to me at least.
Talked to Sten the other day, she says I haven't changed a bit. Is that a compliment? Cool to catch up with her.
Also talked to Chris on Monday. Everyone always told me how perfect we were for each other and why don't we just hook up. I can't pinpoint the exact reason why we never went out. It wasn't just that I didn't want to ruin the friendship, I may have done that when we started making out. And yes, at the beginning it was that I didn't want a serious relationship, but... I don't know. I shouldn't try to analyze this until I've figured it out myself. I wish I was madly in love with him, I have every reason to be.
I'll Just Keep On Dreaming
"Come to the edge."
"We can't. We're afraid!"
"Come to the edge."
"We can't. We'll fall!"
"Come to the edge."
And they came.
And he pushed them.
And they flew.
-Guillaume Apollinaire

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