My heart beats in breakdowns.

It would appear that I am having some sort of mental, physical and emotional breakdown. I've just been randomly crying all day.

The funeral went as well as can be expected. It was awesome to see that so many people came down from Ottawa. Altogether, there were well over 400 people. Interesting to see a Muslim funeral, though I must admit I spent a lot of time trying not to offend anyone and I was completely lost at points. The part that got to me was the open casket though. I can't even describe... I wouldn't even want to try. It was absolutely shocking and disturbing. I will never get that image out of my head. Extremely glad that I went but it's left me really shaken up.

On top of that, I decided to take my car into the garage today to figure out that weird noise it's been making for the past week. Turns out the A/C system is gone and will cost 900$ to fix. I don't HAVE 900$. And I do need air conditioning. Which means loaning the money from my parents, which I hate to do, and then hoping my car will survive the 5 hour drive to Ottawa and not break down in the middle of like Gananoque.

It's just everything right now. Like these are the most recent things. I'm just feeling overwhelmed. I really cannot take anything else. Well, they say bad things happen in 3's, or in my case, in three dozens.